VADO A ROMA!!!

Today, just before 8pm I thought to myself I'd best to shut the computer for a change to cool down. But before I should check my fb. And, maybe I'll check my email as well, all though all the offices have closed at 3-4 and no one'll write to me on email. But, why not.

WHY NOT INDEED! There was lost of emails, impotence and so on, but in the middle there was two letters from the same person, and they said The Course on Classical Antiquity! Already by then I started to suspect the good news. I and there it was, my name last on a list of accepted students to the course in Rome! The second letter said, Congratulations, you have been accepted...!!!



Just today I was in despair about my wasted life, I applied to a cleaning firm and I wasn't even invited to an interview (I didn't know you needed to be a notary to be a cleaner). I was chosen, and I wasn't even lying on my application! Now I have july and august in Rauma doing work of my education (museum assistant) and september in Rome! That's going to ruin my international tutoring this year, but I won't complain!
I wen't roung the flat in a semi-squating jump steps for a while, and then I called my mom and sister.



Only problem in this is the money. And I'll miss all the classes in september, also the historical gardening class, which would've been fun. But I have a good reason to translate that 4th book of Aeneid that's missing from my degree. And I can go to Italy! Then I've been in six capitals of the world, London for England, Edinbourgh for Scotland, St Andrews for Fife, Paris for France and Barcelona for Cataluña! I'll be happy.
And even more, I bought a while ago a travel guide to Rome, now I can use it!

First I was jumping from happiness, then I started to laugh evil laughter to all of those wankers in classical philology department. They kicked me out by spreating evil rumors about me, and none of them was even accepted! I have been found unwanting!
I will join the ranks of elite group. Only selected few have been allowed to enter the walls of Finnish Rome / Athens Cultural Institute (not true, my whole class went to Rome when I was in Scotland). But they weren't chosen! Best of all, that fucking insect who drove me out of the department has applied many times and always rejected. She also applied many times to museology studies, was rejected and stop talking when I was chosen on my first try. Now it's going little too negative, forget that last bit.

And by the way, my strike is going surprisingly well, apart from this bloated tummy. Where the hell did she come from?

Lysistrate, that is perseverance of mind

This habit of mine, crying in every occasion when something happy happens in a book/film, is really getting out of hands. That's why I desided to start a strike or a fast against all romantic, erotic and so on literature and films and especially thought. It's going to be really tough even if it's only one week. I was dying on Easter when I had to be 4 days without masturbating, and even tougher a week ago, when we figured out that the ice hockey team of which country's music I listened always won. Fucking Basshunter kept going on in my head all weekend... It's easier to not actually do something, but with music on one's head you have to actually stop your thoughts! Horrible... But I did it! I listened Finnish music for 3 days and we won!!!


Here's the book that inspired my stike. Tapestry of Fionavar, IloveitIloveitIloveit!

So it's going to be hard week for me. After I made the decision, I tried to think something else to think. What do people think? Gosh, they have to think something, it's not possible for all the world to think sex 24/7... I hope my fasting will help me in two ways. Maybe I learn not to connect every male into a possible lover, and maybe my stopping to be desperate will bring them to me! Anyway it'll help me not to get so upset not to have a boyfriend and spoil every happy moment with thinkig how much better it could be.


No more this for me; He Knew He Was Right will stay on shelf until Sunday...

Another problem. When I was walking I started to think what does my fast contain. Only movies and books, or also thoughts? And only erotic/romantic movies or all from which I have out of place thoughts? What about music which makes me euphoric? Basically do I deny everything that makes me feel good? Well, I looked at my tummy and decided to add to the list NO CHOCOLATE for one week, except one bar to last for one week (cold turkey doesn't work for me). And jogging so long until my feet give up, it feels good and I don't have energy to think rude thoughts.

Will be nice first holiday (unemployment) week!

The Great Shame

I was thinking, which one was better, Ice Hockey Championship 1995 or 2011... But now, thanks to the people of Finland, it is quite clear; 1995. For what has happened in Finland, and unfortunatelly also in Sweden, is a shame for the whole country. It is understantable to celebrate, and hard, because we don't usually win anything. But I don't know why, maybe it's because the right wing anti-foreigner party won the elections a month ago or the new generation (oh I feel old) is just missing a few brain cells. I wanted to go to streets at night and yell victory and how happy I am, but the celebration should be positive. However, it seems that Finns have been going around beating foreigners and Finnish-Swedish, who are Finnish (Swedish is with Finnish our official language). What is worse, it seems that some Finns went over the border to Sweden and started beating people and driving them over with cars and burning Swedish flags! I've been taught that a flag is sacred, and I just can't understand that kind of hatred. Come on, it was just ice hockey! I totally understand the Swedish who now swear they will come here next year to burn our flags. Luckily some people made an appeal to the hockey team to speak against racism and they spoke.


Picture in Swedish newspaper before the game...

There has always been a bit of a fight between Finland and Sweden. For me it has been like between sisters (or brothers). Like we argue and want to be better, but in the end it's better for Sweden to win if we can't. But, the sport matches between us two are always many times more agressive than against anyone else. For me I've thought it as funny thing, until now... You see above a picture in Swedish newspaper about their opinion of Finnish team before Sunday night, and below a picture on Monday. In Swedish newspapers they agree that losing to Finland is worse than losing to anyone else. The same thing happened in 1995, when we were in Stockholm Sweden, before their home audience, and they lost to us. We even stole their team song, sang by Swedish ice hockey team. That was the first swedish song I could sing... On the other hand, we have lost to Sweden soo many times... according to Wikipedia in finals 2 times. Next year the games are divided between Helsinki Finland and Stockholm, so it seems our nation has caused us a war in 2012. Thank you!


...and after.

Another thing which has been criticised has been the state of the players. They were so drunk they couldn't stand! I actually understand it, they are young men, but honestly speaking not very good role models for young kids, who are told to look up athletes for their healthy lifestyle...Actually the head of Finnish Ice Hockey was given a lecture from minister of sport! It was sooo amaizing to win the championship, and that's why it's sooo awful to say that we shouldn't have won. Unfortunate amount of people share this opinion. We Finns are famous of our bad self esteem and humbleness, but it seems that when we finally are better than anyone else, it's not pretty. We are not good winners (any more).


Celebration, Finnish style; pathetic

CHAMPIONS OF THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WE DID IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WE DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks to Sweden's first goal, we did 6 more!!!!!!!!!!
First game, 0-0. Second, Sweden 1, and just before break Finland 1-1.
Third, Finland 1-2, 45 seconds later 1-3.
Then 1-4, I was screaming "they are not even tryig any more!"
1-5 I wasn't screaming any more, and 1-6 I started crying and yelling "stop the game, this isn't worth the attempt any more!" That was just a slaughter. The main game was really good, both fighting with blood in their mouth, but then Sweden just gave up.

Last time I was this happy was in 1995 when Finland was world champion the first time.Only team we lost was Republic of Czech, Sweden lost to Norway!



The real reason I was crying was because I'm sitting here on my sofa alone. What use it is to be so happy when I'm alone? there's no life alone! Only fucking social relationship is Facebook. And that is to like what others write... I was planning to go outside to see people celebrating but now I don't want to torture myself. What use...



Funny thing that Sweden's goalkeeper was the best player of the games?!!! 1995 the opposing team was Sweden also, so that's cool. Another nice thing is that there was no same players anymore in the team.
I feel like I've been drinking half the night somewhere, I need something balancing...

Eurovision 2011, again live

I'm watching Eurovision songcontest. I try to write fast, beacuse they are already giving the points. My favourite is France, second Greece and third to Denmark. Sweden wasn't at all cool, Finland, well, the song was quite nice, actually, but compared with the other ones, rather boring.
At the moment France has 11 points, Finland zero, Greece 32 points, Sweden 21 points...
I'm not very interesting of this competition, I'm more sports fan, in here there's usually more bad songs than good ones, besides Finland usually loses.


(Finland)

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Thank you Norway, 12 points for Finland! By the way, strange votes from Finland... Ireland was weird, maybe good if not watching. Iceland next, maybe we get points, Nordic co-operation. And 10 points for us! And 12 points for Denmark, what a surprise.
It' sonly fair to give points to nordic countries, eat europeans give points to themselves...


(Denmark)

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Denmark: Finland 5, 10 Sweden, Ireland 12!!!
Azerbaijan gets lost of votes, well it was lovely song. Poland, five to Finland! But we have more than France, which is a shame... Sweden next: 7 for finland, WTF?!! You deserve to lose ice hockey tomorrow... no today, it's past midnight.


(<3<3<3France <3<3<3)

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Germany, 2 for Finland.

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Switzerland gave Finland 5 points, thaank you! These finnish presenters are awful, they actually said that its really strange how France could like Spain's song. It was nice song, those people are just evil. You can have favourites and hate others, but NOT despise anything!!!
Now France has more points than Finland, no matter what I said before, still I'm upset...


(Greece)

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We gave Hungary 12 points, Hungary gave us NOTHING!![cunts]. Lithuania gave pathetic 1 point. But zero to Sweden!!! Actually quite annoying the german presenter woman. I was watching the Greek song in youtube and somebody hoped they wouldn't win because they don't have money (Ireland: 3 for us) to organize competition next year. Well, guess why we sent Lordi the other year... We didn't have money either so we sent the crappiest band. How could we have known people voted us?
Sweden's fucking Justin Bieber clone gets too much points. And Estonia, our family nation gave us just 7, and fucking sweden 12! Traitor! I'm voting Azerbaijan at this point. Now Latvia, lots of points for us! ZEEEROOO! But Sweden didn't win, so ok.

We got 3rd most votes in semi-finals, but 21st in final. But we were the favourites of the European press.

Final thoughts. I would rather have Sweden win this than Ice Hockey World Championship tomorrow. But it would have been disaster if they had won both. I think it would have been cool to have been Finland and Sweden at top two...
Sweden was only 3rd, Italy with quite cool song came 2nd.
Now, tomorrow and the match of a lifetime, I want to win, I want to win, I want to win...

Russia down, again!

Finland won Russia today, again, this time with clean game 3-0. On Sunday, Finland-Sweden, for gold!
With Granlund's unbelievable first goal! Here's link to youtube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CQwSY_n4Cn4



I would yell but my throat stopped working after 3rd goal, I would jump but there's no one living beneath my flat...

epic match; today, LIVE!

What the fuck? Norway's leading one goal, and now we made goal when I was writing this!??
FUUUCK! Okay, explanation, we had wine in our seminar today, liiittle bit tipsy. But really, we should have wine always, much better concversation, with one class more I've could've spoken something.
AAND ANOTHER GOAL! Game seems to be starting!
First Finnish Koivu furt himself, then Norwegian Koivu hurt himself. It's not cool that someone hurts, but it's quite funny...

continue***Finland is leading now, but again we have less players... Norway can't be good in ice hockey, it's already good in football!

ANND ONCE MOOORE! Quite annoying ,we only have superiority like a minute, when we make a goal!

Penaltie, penalties... good thing that Norway don't have as good a luck as we have...
AND AGAIN!! That was beautiful, LAJUNEN! Little ballet dancer! 4-1 to us!

And last break coming...



So.. we had last master seminar today before summer, I wasn't sure I wanted to go, because I had to write the fucking review of the book What is history now? I could make a summary, an analysis, an essay, but not a fucking review! AAARGH! And I haven't done my thesis, the professor wouldn't be happy... In the end I wen't just to avoid the review, and because there was supposed to be food. Little did I know, WIINE! I'm not a drunk, but I like not drunks but people who are drunk. And it was fun! Really anxious people, but in a positive sense. Of course there was cheese, I'm not into that, they were speaking that wine and cheese is a cultivated, civilized offering, and cake is quite like countryside, hillbillyish. I was laughing, indeed! I am from countryside!
At first I couldn't understand a thing and I had my own little party atthe end of the long table. But then they noticed I didn't have wine so they did a group effort to carry me some and then I wasn't laughing any more, because I started to understand. And it was white wine, which was good, I hate red one.

No goals in 3rd round, 4-1 to Finland!
But I'd like to congratulate Norway, excellent playing, Without your 0-1 goal we would not have been able to start fighting. You might have lost to us, but you won Sweden, the dream of all Finnish!

And Russia went down!

Once more exciting match. But this Finnish goalkeeper stuff is ridiculous. First in czech game Lassila sucks and they change into Vehanen, who is perfect; now he gives in 4 minutes 2 goals! WHAAAT?! Change takes place, and Lassila makes clean game. Honeslty, who will be our next goalie? No one knows.

Another thing, this inability to make goals. Now we don't serve as mush as before, which is good because you can't make goals if you don't try. But AIM in to that fucking goal! Finland has had three penalty--shot--game (what ever it is called when you take turns shooting the other goal) and it has won every one (today as well). So we can make goals. Team Finland, eat more sugar before the game!



And in the end, I forgot my favourite lion; Jarmo Immonen. Look at him smile... Once again I keep my neighbour aware of game situation. But it's their own fault. I mean who goes jogging when Finland wins Russia?! But one must remember that in Slovak game I desided that I wouldn't gontinue watching matches I we lose, except if Finns play for gold or against a really bad (playing) team...

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Oh no, I was supposed to speak about ice hockey yesterday!
At the moment there's ice hockey world championship games on in Slovakia. Finland has, again, a team that's perfect at times, shite most of the time. It's incredible how they can't keep it together more than 2 minutes at the time. But now I must say I like our team. As much as I love the 1995 winning team, that's 16 years ago, I'm glad there's no famous players playing anymore like Selänne or (the older)Koivu. Having said that I got no idea if the players today are famous, I'm not very informed about ice hockey...

A few words about the players. I understand Granlund is very good, well, he has shown it. However, he's just a little boy. I like Leo Komarov's style of playing, maybe that's due of him being Estonian, but by appearance he's quite blank. But, Tuomo Ruutu, he's a man to my liking, both in playing style and...



I read a piece of news, where Sean Bergenheim laughed at Sami Lepistö of him not being voted as the most sexy "lion", so I had to see what he looked like, and so it was that he was also my number two:



Quel surprise, they look the same... Honestly I was sure that Sami was blonde... And I also like Petri Vehanen's, goalkeeper's green helmet.

Today Finland plays against Russia. Russia has usually a really good team, I'm a bit afraid of that, but even more I'm afraid of Jevgeni Artjuhin. He's a fucking killing machine. Yesterday he knocked out 2 czech players and before that slovakian, and others and others... Czech won anyway, but... not funny. Hopefully we make lots of goals today, I've watched every finns' game and only one has been lost, but our goal 19s before end was nice. Slovak game was horrible, we were losind until the very end, but slovak team seemed nice, what a shame they dropped...

The face when his self control cracked...

I'm still dreaming about my count of Monte Cristo. Gosh he was fantastic! At the beginning he was really young looking, after, he really got older. I like Jim Caviezel better than Gérald Depardieu. Reason is the same why I like the 21c. Austen movies better than older ones. The age. Maybe 18 y olds were more adults than they are today, but they still looked young. And Anne Elliot was old maid, but not certainly 40 nor captain Wentworth nor colonel Brandon 50 or something (I don't know how old the actors were, nevertheless I like the new ones better).

The same about Edmund Dantes. I really want to read the book, but we have it at home and so I can't borrow it from library so I have to wait somebody to bring it to me. Anyway I don't think he was older than 25, most likely younger, so he cannot be gerald's age when returning. I tink they sould be little over 30, and so free to start again (((the babymaking))).



I've tried to watch some movie or something lots of times, and the french tv-series, but it's so boring and morbit and totally against my taste that I've given it a miss. But this one christmas when me and my sister were again fighting the whole 6/8 hours series came on christmas day and I had to watch it so my sister couldn't take over the room (not funny, couldn't even go to pee). So I watched it and fell in love. This guy, who has build such a hatred into his heart, thinks only revenge. But then, and this I hadn't understod before, there comes old love, and this kid of his enemy, who he want's to hate but is unable, and little by little his wish of revenge fails to give him satisfaction. So it's not about hatred at all!

I read about this new research according to which depressed people don't like angry music. Well I don't like angry music, deppressed movies of books. That's why people say I can't be derpessed. Well that proved it wrong! I still have my self protection instinct intact, thank you! But rreally that movie is amazing! Altough I must admit that Edmund is pretty lucky guy, must be quite an annoying friend...



Today's Mothers' Day in Finland, to celebrate it I took a walk in my short skirt to a hill, took the above picture, fought with my mom and made peace too. Picture's not as beautiful than the top picture I know, but little reality must be retained...